update please.

i apologize i haven't blogged lately. i did try once, and it didn't work. i was super mad becuase my computer froze after i wrote a ton.
SO. today i played some b-ball with some firneds, it was super fun.
i started a job at lakeside digital, which i so far enjoy.
i have cleaned my room and done my homework. hehe
my birthday is in 24 days! i'm getting my monroe pierced, and i'm super excited.
i'm coaching mini's soccer this year, it's so fun. the kids are so excited as am i and lauryn (also coach)
our first game is in Fisher Branch on wednesday.
i'm playing migits, and our first game is monday against morweena.
tomorrow is the slave auction for youth, and then a social afterwards(not for youth...)
sunday is mothers day! the youth is putting on a service at the church, me and aimee brandt are singing, and there is a skit also.
i dont know what else to write, except that i'm loving life at the moment, and everything is good.
i'm quite content.

No beginning, and No end.

i can remember running, in the dark.
.someone was chasing me.
i could hear random gobbles from the turkeys. well, more like shrieks.
even though it was dark, i could see the bright red blood drenching the naked bodies hanging from the ceiling.
they were perfectly hung, about one foot apart from each other, but scattered throughout the entire barn.
i was pushing them out of my way, trying to get further from the man chasing me.
i could hear myself breathing heavily as i was bumping into the bodies, trying to get away.
there were only woman hanging, i didn't see that, i only knew.
i didn't know why i was getting chased, but i knew he was after me.
i was next to be hung.
i got up to the door where two men were standing facing the opposite direction.
the men and i were wearing coveralls and i thought they might not notice me run past.
crazy thought.
i ran, but in my mind i was wondering why i coudn't go any faster.
my legs wanted to go faster, but my body didn't let me.
i ran past them and then it happened..

I woke up.

nightmares do not make sense what-so-ever

especially this one.

it didn't have a beginning or an end.

everything has a beginning and an end.

i dont get why i dreamt this..

but it really scared me..

Teeth and Shoes.

Now... Before..

New!

The end :)

Better with little sleep.

last night was the last late night i could have for spring break. me and my girlfriends [i hate that term, but i'm going to use it] went to a social, [no drinkin! =)] and danced, sat, hung out for a few hours, left at one and went to sleep... i had to get up at 8 the next morning for church and i didn't even have trouble waking up. when i go to bed early, it seems like i need more sleep to get up cheerfully. today; i am in an unusually great mood. i've been happy, bubbly and content. is this because of little sleep? or because of the two cups of coffee digested into a 15 year olds body.. i dont know, but maybe i just need to be active during the day, and go to bed late, and wake up early! school tomorrow, eugh.

A little message.

"im a boy. i know it oest look ike it but i am." that was supposed to look like i wrote that, but here's a tip: dont let your computer logged in when your big brother is home.

Automatic Flush Toilet = Seizure?

silvercity has some pretty intense bathroom memories including me and tori. last time we went to a movie, we were in the washroom, and i opened the little garbage thing and it broke through to the next stall... uh-oh.. and then tori broke the toilet seat... yeah, uh bad luck. so this time, we're both in a stall, right beside each other and i hear her toilet flush, and all i hear is tori screaming, haha so are these things really useful? dont they like, flush every 30 seconds? who walks in, gets their pants un-done, sit down and pee, wipe, pull pants back up in 30 secs? i dont blame tori for seizuring, but i thought it was hilarious at the same time. thats my little story, i hadnt blogged in a few days..busy!

Changeling

last night me and my family had pizza night, we made our own pizzas and watched a movie. the movie we watched was called changeling. it was with angelina jolie about her having her son go missing. the police tell her they have found her son, and returned him to her. she noticed right away that the boy was not her son, but they said it had been months that she had seen him last, and that he could have changed. she goes for years fighting to find her son, and the police are against her the whole movie. it was a really long movie, but i really enjoyed it.
today i dont have much to say. except after watching that movie, and seeing how angelina jolie fights for her son so hard, it makes me wonder that if we fight till we prove a point, would relationships and government and society be different? in changeling, one person changed hundreds of peoples views, and if we try hard enough, can we change other peoples views too?
from now on, i'm going to push harder to show other people what i believe, and i think others should too.

you will loose the small ones but win the big ones... ?

i can write more than one blog a day, right? well i guess this is mine; so i can do what i want. i guess i'm a bit new with the whole constant blogging.

so the other day we were out at bill's chinese, and i got a fortune cookie. okay, so i don't depend on those things, but mine kinda made sense, as well as mom and dad's..

moms; okay so i don't remember the exact words, but something about how your financial stuff will get better, (terrible wording i know, but i dont remember)

dads; one of your dreams will come true. (okay so dad has 2039984 dreams, so this made sense if one comes true)

and mine was; you will loose the small ones, but win the big ones.

i've been having bumpy friendships and confusion about school and stuff, so i know i've lost a few small ones, but i'm still waiting on the big one. god could have put that message in there to keep me positive, right?

i know i just put this blog up, but do people read these? mine aren't very interesting, and i don't use big words or terminology, although i wish i could, but i just can't talk like that. i recently read a book written by stephan christian (singer of the band anberlin) and his words were insane, i should probably have had online dictionary beside me throughout reading the book, but i'm too impatient. i did learn things in that book, and i really enjoyed it.

see what is my point to any of these posts? its just random thoughts, that don't go together what-so-ever.

but anyway, spring break, eh? yay. city for a few days, shopping, tim hortons, and that's probably about it. but thats good enough for me. i hope i can remember to keep this blog up. even if i know people won't read these, i need to put my thoughts somewhere, i don't keep up with a journal, and maybe some people need to see/read my thoughts. well, some of them anyway. so if you're reading this, thanks for taking your time.

and have a good spring break.

<3

Start all over.

time for a new blog. i hate continuing a blog that i've quit for a long time, so i'm hoping i can keep up with this one. this one will be more thoughts and questions instead of updates on my every-day life. sure, i'll fill you in on what i'm up to, but i do have lots of thoughts, and i hope i can put them down. beware: i'm nearly 16, and some of my thoughts and questions aren't very clear or interesting...or nice.
lately i've been different. its not that i'm mad or lost, its that i'm holding in my thoughts."think before you speak..." i never used to live by that, it was speak whatever, whenever. now i realize that a lot of what i think, doesn't need to be said. that's why i've been quieter lately. it's not that i don't like you [or maybe it is..]but that i'm thinking before i speak. my emotions are just monotone* towards everyone. i dont not like you, i just may not be a huge fan. i have been more positive lately, but it's hard, i'm a pessimist. (lets hope that's the right word).

so welcome to my new blog. if i'm not keeping up with this, give me a slap- my memory isn't fantasic.